It has officially commenced!

Since he doesn't seem to mind being wet, we've gone straight to underwear. Through three pair so far today...but if it helps him become aware of when it happens, so be it. And as of the moment he's vetoing the underwear altogether, but is now even more aware of when the accidents happen. Still hasn't used the potty, but he needs to recognize his body's signals first. Sigh. Bring out the washcloths.

Diapers: To be shed soon...

Ronan has actually been telling me when he's dirty. Yay! And not fighting during diaper changes. Yay! I want to make sure I can have him at home training for a couple of days though, so we won't move into underwear just yet. I can't wait to say goodbye to worrying about paying for diapers.

Well, it's been a while.

Ronan is smarter every day, anymore. He knows a ton of colors, can count to ten, knows several shapes. He can copy how I show him to do something, and just has a great memory all around. He amazes me, and even more when I read things like most kids don't know colors til 3 or 4. He's also 3 feet tall, which makes him officially more than half my size, lol.

Other things aren't necessarily so great. Chris and I have been together for almost 5 months, so that's good. But I only get to see him on weekends. I'm going through job searches again. Had to leave the sewing job - long story but it's my bipolar's fault again - loved working as a personal care aide but hurt my back doing it. Now I can't walk without hurting and can't work there anymore. Soooo on to finding something else, ugh. The county 911 dispatch is hiring me part-time, but that means I will only work when they need me to fill-in and the other part-timers can't. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed for this management position I'm interviewing for in a few days. It will be a winner, I'm sure, just not a shoe-in yet. So again, wondering where I'm going to come up with rent, bills, diapers...So sick of this. Just want to live and not think about money. When I don't have it is the only time I care.

Help the Fight

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My Birthday Wish

My birthday isn't until July 9, but this year I've got a BIG goal...try $5000. Follow this link to find out why <3

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My Review of Childproof Power Strip Safety Cover

Originally submitted at One Step Ahead

Safeguard your power strip. You've childproofed your electrical outlets don't overlook that computer power strip! Our safety cover snaps over the entire power strip, latching firmly in place. You can remove it easily, but your child can't. Includes four safety plugs to cover unused ou...

Childproof Power Strip Safety Cover

Excellent Product!

By Heather and Ronan from Pauls Valley, OK on 4/4/2011

 

5out of 5

Pros: Easy Use, Strong Construction, Useful Application

Best Uses: Accident Prevention, Toddlers

Describe Yourself: First Time Parent

This is one of the best child-proofing products for our home. Older homes don't have many outlets, so we are forced to use a lot of power strips. Not only does the strip cover keep my 2-year-old from dangerous exploration, it automatically makes the mess look way better. If you have to have an exposed strip, you need one of these.

(legalese)

Oh, and P.S.

Chris and I are still together, the guy I blogged about in January? He's wonderful, an understatement, and even  understanding and patient of my not-so-affectionate self right now. Ronan adores him and vice-versa. He treats me like a goddess, or queen, or whatever simile you prefer. I'm officially in love, and I know without doubt this is like no other relationship I've had, but that's a good thing. His lease is up in August and we'll be trying out the living together thing. A little nervous about it because I know I can be hard to live with. Ronan will love it, he always misses when Chris isn't here (he stays with us weekends). Ah, love.

Well, a few things have happened

Since January. Ronan had his second birthday, of which I am still in disbelief. I started my second nervous breakdown and lost my job because of it, another second. Since I'm not eligible for unemployment I am literally broke. Borrowing what I can to make this month's rent and then I'll worry about the rest later.

Ronan isn't in daycare, and I know he misses his friends. Playing with mommy all day just isn't the same, especially when mommy has to spend the better part of her day researching work at home jobs. Trust me, it's the only employment I'm going to get. I've put in over 30 applications to real places and not a single call. Well, one, but they wouldn't give me full time. Geez I think my cat just farted on my lap...

So I'm still having much bipolar remorse and hypersensitivity right now. Good news? The birth father I've been looking for the last four years didn't just go away and forget about me. No, I didn't find him. His baby sister found me, my aunt Renae. She let me know that he in fact passed away about 20 years ago and wished for her to find me. And I also find out I have 3 brothers and 2 sisters, whom I'm to meet at least this June at a huge family reunion. It's still all a little more than I can take in, very surreal, but very exciting. I can't wait to meet them and see how all of this goes.

Now, to find income...