The leasing agent at my complex actually offered me a two-bedroom before my lease is up in July. I'm on the "next-available" list, and my deposits will transfer to the new apartment. I'm pretty psyched, since imagining 5 more months here and Ronan will be walking any second...He'll have his own room, and closet, we'll have a second bath, I'll have my own bath and walk-in-closet. And I don't have to rent a freakin truck. It's about 300 sqft larger than what we have, and a hall closet that we don't have now. Ah, even less crammage. I'll have to get a chair or something for Ronan's room when we do our nightly routine; as it is I give him his bottle sitting on my bed, then put him in his crib and leave.

I won't have to have my bed pushed up against the wall anymore. Ok, when you sleep alone every night it's not such a big deal. But maybe I don't want to sleep alone every night? Hmmm? It'll be kind of like living alone again because we won't be cramped together. It's been nice, and fine for him since he's still crawling. But he is an independent soul just like his mother. And I don't want him to feel insecure about being by himself. For the last several months I've had a curtain from ceiling to floor separating the bedroom into two parts; just enough space for him to have his "nursery" and me to have my bedroom, and not disturb him while I'm up late studying. Also, when he wakes up in the night, he doesn't see me and immediately want me to come to him. I think it's good for both of us. I would love to snuggle with him every night, but I know it won't be healthy in years to come. And I don't want my son to be a mama's boy. Though I can already tell he's going to be big and strong enough to hold his own to anyone who calls him one :)

I feel like writing more but want it to be productive. I'll post a cool pic or something. Ha. I don't even know how often anyone who knows about my blog reads it. It's really just personal therapy. When you don't have adult conversation all day, or all weekend, this can be a pretty great outlet.

Keep trying to upload new videos of Ronan on YouTube and it keeps error-ing me!! Blast. Second try two days in a row. Maybe someday there will be videos on the sidebar other than those where he's lying helpless in his bassinett trying his damndest to get that Panda Bear to stop staring at him, it's freaking me out, dude!

I had chocolate Cheerios today. Yes, I said chocolate as an adjective for Cheerios. Life is good.

I should be studying. But I am far too exhausted to remember the difference between emulsions, solutions, and suspension right now, much less the different examples of each. I'm reading this chapter for the second time now. My sister said it was much easier in lab to learn each of the dosage forms because they were right freakin' there. I'm even having a hard time knowing how to pronounce some of the chemicals. I'm gonna show up at a pharmacy and be laughed out the door. Can't damn me for trying. Anyway, back to why I'm so exhausted: The hardest job I would have to say I have ever done - I take back everything I ever said about Army training in New Jersey in the winter in a freakin' sand pit and it's raining and the heaters tried to kill us from carbon monoxide poisoning and inhalation and seven days without a shower or running water - would be staying at home with a sick, feverish baby, who's just smart enough to try to communicate what is wrong and what will make it better, who's mama is just slow enough to try everything anyway. The poor guy's had a fever for 3 days now. Cold virus, they say. This is the worst yet. High temp was 103.5; don't you think that called for a throw in the lukewarm bath.

I certainly have many italics in this post. You know, ever since I installed the latest version of Firefox, I can't right click on anything. Piss.

I might be going bowling or roller skating or both with someone I met on the dating site. Yes, I already heard it from my mother. She knows how hyper-vigilant I am and still thinks I need to hear how scary that is. Well, I wouldn't have joined the damn thing if a) there was any potential to meet someone new in BFE, OK and b) I wasn't planning on ever making real-life contact with someone. No, the man seems very nice, interesting, similar interests, and a little out there like me. But time will tell. I'll either make a great new friend, boyfriend, or never see ya again. Life is much too short to wait for things to happen to you. And generally, while you're waiting for things to happen to you, bad things are waiting to. Ok, maybe that's just my drama. But you know me.

My Review of 3-in-1 Activity Gym

Originally submitted at One Step Ahead

Toddlers have a ball on our exclusive first swing set, with a unique, irresistible ball pit! Promotes hours of healthy, active fun. Super-sturdy and built for safety, with a high-back swing, security harness, gently angled slide, and soft-sided ball enclosure. Indoor/outdoor. Includes 50 balls; ord...

3-in-1 Activity Gym

Fun, Smart, and Great Value

By Heather and Ronan from Pauls Valley, OK on 2/3/2010

 

4out of 5

Gift: Yes

Pros: Grows With Baby, Entertaining, Promotes Sensory Development, Holds Baby's Attention, Easy to Assemble, Easy to Clean, Visually Stimulating

Best Uses: Playtime

Describe Yourself: First Time Parent

My son loves this, and so do I! I only have a couple of complaints so I'll get those out of the way. It only came with 50 balls which might sound reasonable, but it's hardly enough to fill up a corner of the ball pit. Ordered the extra balls, but the original ones are a different size, so that was strange. Also, the plastic caps that cover the hardware for the swing don't fit over the nuts that keep the swing in place - mismeasurement somewhere. Just watch your kids like you should be and they won't get their little fingers up there. And the instructions don't include how to use the straps on the swing, but I got it figured out.

All-in-all great product. The first time my son used it he was thrilled. I live in an upstairs apartment with a big balcony, and it's sturdy enough that it's not bothered by wind or weather, but is still lightweight enough to move around easily. I can see this product lasting for the two years it was intended. And a great concept, there's nothing else like it.

(legalese)

My Review of 100 Extra Balls

Originally submitted at One Step Ahead

Have a ball — times 100! Our giant ball pack includes 100 rainbow-colored, lightweight plastic balls that add fun to any ball pit.

100 Extra Balls

Great value

By Heather and Ronan from Pauls Valley, OK on 2/3/2010

 

4out of 5

Gift: Yes

Pros: Lots of Fun, Portable, Easy To Clean, Entertaining, Durable

Best Uses: Toddlers

Describe Yourself: First Time Parent

I ordered 200 extra balls to go with the 3-in-1 Activity Gym. The only thing I didn't like is that they are bigger than the 50 balls that came with the gym. Otherwise, lots of fun, safe, soft, and fun bright colors. The storage/carry bag they came in was a great bonus.

(legalese)

I totally joined an online dating site. Not that it's never been done before. Guess all those times I was married I had no reason to consider. Some of my girlfriends have some horror stories, but I had to try it out for myself. No, I'm not ready to be in a serious relationship already. But, I figured by the time I get to know someone well enough to a) meet them irl and b) decide on commitment I would be there, like in a State Farm commercial. I found a free one, it's OkCupid. I don't know what the Ok is for. Anyway, it seems pretty thorough and I like the questions that are available.

I'm a total dork and created a facebook profile for Ronan. I thought it would be easier to put stuff on his own page than make people look at all my crap to know what's going on with him. Although, all I ever really do on there anymore is post mobile photos, read the live feed and like something every now and again. And take pointless quizzes. I think I'm addicted to quizzes.